Friday, October 31, 2003
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
Today I came to work dressed as a witch of sorts... It was really an "Eternal Vampira" costume from KMart but I added a full, hooded cape and a witch's hat... Looks cute... I can't wait to get home and see my little men dressed up and heading off to school... After springing Daddy from hospital I'll be over at Uborka mingling w/Karen and the gang, enjoying cocktails for a tiny bit... What a great way to jump back into the singles scene dontcha think?? I look forward to the outing!!
Dilen is still really sick... he's been hovering btwn 103/104 and we even took him to the ER yesterday afternoon.... He was shaking and miserable - read 104.5 via ear when we were seen by triage nurse... they gave him motrin, did some blood work, got the fever down to 99 and sent us home after 3.5 hrs... Gee thanks guys but I could have given him motrin and saved myself a future bill for the $100 copay.... I have never had him have a fever that just would not break and stay down after a week... He gets glassy eyed, shakes and starts to become delirious - yabbering some 4 yo gibberish - I had almost been wishing they would admit him til we got the fever to come down and STAY down - instead they run blood/urine tests, tell us they are all fine/neg, called his pedi and sent us home....
I have been feeling a little poorly myself lately - an ever so slight feverish, flu-ish feeling and a headache over my eyes that just will NOT got completely away.... *sigh* Between this feeling and lack of sleep I have been feeling very brain dead this week - I don't think I can honestly hold an intelligent conversation for more then 2 min right now... I gotta get some sleep and maybe watch some news to catch up on current events before my brain entirely becomes mush... In the mean time, anyone have a topic they would like to discuss??? Til next time...
Today I came to work dressed as a witch of sorts... It was really an "Eternal Vampira" costume from KMart but I added a full, hooded cape and a witch's hat... Looks cute... I can't wait to get home and see my little men dressed up and heading off to school... After springing Daddy from hospital I'll be over at Uborka mingling w/Karen and the gang, enjoying cocktails for a tiny bit... What a great way to jump back into the singles scene dontcha think?? I look forward to the outing!!
Dilen is still really sick... he's been hovering btwn 103/104 and we even took him to the ER yesterday afternoon.... He was shaking and miserable - read 104.5 via ear when we were seen by triage nurse... they gave him motrin, did some blood work, got the fever down to 99 and sent us home after 3.5 hrs... Gee thanks guys but I could have given him motrin and saved myself a future bill for the $100 copay.... I have never had him have a fever that just would not break and stay down after a week... He gets glassy eyed, shakes and starts to become delirious - yabbering some 4 yo gibberish - I had almost been wishing they would admit him til we got the fever to come down and STAY down - instead they run blood/urine tests, tell us they are all fine/neg, called his pedi and sent us home....
I have been feeling a little poorly myself lately - an ever so slight feverish, flu-ish feeling and a headache over my eyes that just will NOT got completely away.... *sigh* Between this feeling and lack of sleep I have been feeling very brain dead this week - I don't think I can honestly hold an intelligent conversation for more then 2 min right now... I gotta get some sleep and maybe watch some news to catch up on current events before my brain entirely becomes mush... In the mean time, anyone have a topic they would like to discuss??? Til next time...
Thursday, October 30, 2003
Daddy says he might be getting out today, rest of family driving both of us nuts... I am told G'ma is doing really well w/eating, etc but her heart problems are getting worse... apparently she has a leaky arota value plus some atrical defect so essentially her heart output is less then 20% of what is should be so she gets very short of breath quickly, dizzy, etc.... Basically it's a race against the clock for her - if it's not the tumor it will be her heart just getting tooo tired... *sigh*
Tomorrow is Halloween - I can't wait, gonna be dressing up for work as a vampira/witch thingie (sorry Steph but I am going w/an old sterotype costume) -- the boys are going to be either Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles or Hulk - they can't decide yet -- TG costumes were on clearance at KMart and my Dad offered to pay - got them one of each so they can pick plus they will have another dress up outfit.....
Deven has really progressed in leaps and bounds this past yr but man the mornings have been VERY VERY rough lately - I know that being bipolar we are to expect slow starts but man he's been just miserable lately with his "I can't do it, I just can't do it" that starts w/getting dressed and continues up thru getting out of car at school - he's been late 2 or 3 times this week and yest we had a note from the teacher that she's concerned about his tardiness affecting his academic progress, etc - I sent back a nice note that we have been having rough mornings but I think we are gonna need to send in some paperwork for her to read about bipolar too... On a positive note Deven is very into telling jokes - he tends to crack himself up and I have to say he told me a great one yest - Why did the hotdog put on a sweater???
Cause he was a chili dog!!! How cute is that??? Well it's off to finish up my paperwork and head home.... Til next time...
Tomorrow is Halloween - I can't wait, gonna be dressing up for work as a vampira/witch thingie (sorry Steph but I am going w/an old sterotype costume) -- the boys are going to be either Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles or Hulk - they can't decide yet -- TG costumes were on clearance at KMart and my Dad offered to pay - got them one of each so they can pick plus they will have another dress up outfit.....
Deven has really progressed in leaps and bounds this past yr but man the mornings have been VERY VERY rough lately - I know that being bipolar we are to expect slow starts but man he's been just miserable lately with his "I can't do it, I just can't do it" that starts w/getting dressed and continues up thru getting out of car at school - he's been late 2 or 3 times this week and yest we had a note from the teacher that she's concerned about his tardiness affecting his academic progress, etc - I sent back a nice note that we have been having rough mornings but I think we are gonna need to send in some paperwork for her to read about bipolar too... On a positive note Deven is very into telling jokes - he tends to crack himself up and I have to say he told me a great one yest - Why did the hotdog put on a sweater???
Cause he was a chili dog!!! How cute is that??? Well it's off to finish up my paperwork and head home.... Til next time...
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
ARRRGGGGGG
Been in a funk and now just oh so tired and drained... Dilen has a double ear infection and I feel like I am fighting off something... puter still out of commission at home, feel disconnected from world yet no ummph to correct it... *sigh* Will update more on my baby's 4th birthday back on 20th later..... but just really quick - Dad still here, Dilen is sick, I am tired, got my court date for final action on divorce - Dec 8 at 8:30am..... WOOOO HOOOOOO gotta go - have to get home to wee little sick one.... Miss you all!!! Til next time...
Been in a funk and now just oh so tired and drained... Dilen has a double ear infection and I feel like I am fighting off something... puter still out of commission at home, feel disconnected from world yet no ummph to correct it... *sigh* Will update more on my baby's 4th birthday back on 20th later..... but just really quick - Dad still here, Dilen is sick, I am tired, got my court date for final action on divorce - Dec 8 at 8:30am..... WOOOO HOOOOOO gotta go - have to get home to wee little sick one.... Miss you all!!! Til next time...
Saturday, October 18, 2003
Dad (Poppop) and Deven --
Dad still thinks Dev is just spoiled - regardless of the
bp/adhd - and he takes it personally when Deven ignores him or grunts at him
(ummm he is that way w/EVERYONE esp at the end of the day when he's reached
his limits), that he's sad and feels like crying and is sometimes crying on
the inside, etc and then when Dilen starts acting out/exhibiting the same
behaviors he comments it's "learned behavior" and says things to Dilen
like "Why are you acting like your brother? Why are you being bad, you have
been good all day, etc" I am just biting my tongue cause there is no use in
talking/arguing about it... if it was all learned behavior when I take Dilen
aside and chastise him and he doesn't get his way he would stop and that
would be the end but one of the bp signs/symptoms is that they stuck on
something - a red cup, going to store, wearing blue pants, sandwich cut a
certain way, etc and they CAN"T let it go... they just CAN"T - Dilen does
this more and more recently w/things... while some of the issues are acting
out to a point, he's showing more and more signs/markers of the bp... and no
matter what the boys are doing they are too noisy and he just doesn't get
that kids make noise and they can't help it they get excited and have no
volume control or that some of the toys they have are noisey/annoying (but hey they are playing and not fighting or bothering us).... I know he's set in his ways and from the old school of kids should be heard not seen but he's gonna drive me NUTS! Someone suggested taking him to shrink w/me when Dev goes again... he's commented he took care of BP people before but he doesn't get that children present different - I
printed out some stuff to leave laying around in bathroom since he likes to
read while he's on the throne....
The Divorce --
The "waiting period" is being over, it officially ended on Monday which means that E can no longer contest or counter claim my complaint... I went to courthouse on Tues to submit my motion to get a "judgement by default" which basically says/means that I am asking them to grant the divorce because he didn't object and I gave him the allotted time to respond.. They told me I would get a snail mail w/my courtdate to have judge grant the final decree but that I was looking at near Xmas as they are that backlogged on uncontested divorces - ok no biggie.... Fast forward to Thursday - I get a letter from court - open it thinking "wow I have my court date already"... turned out to be my original paperwork from Tuesday w/a note that I needed to include a second paper!!! SOOOO now I have to go BACK to the courthouse w/the papers AGAIN - what really pisses me off is that I HAD the paper w/me when I was there Tuesday - why didn't they tell me I needed it when I was there??? What gets me more is that the wording of the paperwork says "as filed w/the court" which means they have the original on file so why do I need to provide a copy??? GRRRRRRR SOOOO I get to the courthouse and the "desk/recieving" person listens briefly to my story and question and goes to get the person that handles the block of cast numbers mine is in.... Damn this woman was RUDE from the start and didn't even want to hear ANYTHING from me let alone answer a question - she was TOTALLY CONVINCED from the time the desk told her I wanted to talk to her that I was gonna ask for legal advice or something and REFUSED to talk/listen to me... Her supervisor wasn't MUCH better but atleast she attempted to listen to me.... She went back and checked my file, turns out that YES the requested paper was ALREADY in the file - no explaination or apology for the mix up/lack of competency from office/person sending back original paper of course but atleast my paperwork is now all "OFFICIALLY" filed... Of course I asked about my date since it was 3 days later now and I had already been told Xmas... the supervisor said they have some openings on a day in early Dec and she will put me there but again - I'll get the date in the mail - HOPEFULLY by Tues/Weds I will have my courtdate - what gets me is why they can't tell you right there if you are willing to wait 5 or 10 min - they act like they are comteplating revealing the deep secrets of the world to you then say "it's in the mail".... Ahhhhhh what a wonderful world huh??? Such caring, considerate people working in an office that deals with such stressful issues!!!! But anyway.... it is done... for now...
Parent/Teacher Conference --
The meeting lasted all of 5 min I guess - and man those little chairs are little! *L* Deven is doing WONDERFUL in school this year - all S for Satisfactory except for his sucking/chewing items like his fingers/shirts which was an N for Needs Improvement.... what a HUGE change from last year where it was all N's on his report.... The teacher and I are sooo proud of his progress in ALL aspects of school.... Now if I could get some of his great ability to listen, follow directions, clean up, etc to spill over to home!!!! *LOL* But overall it was WONDERFUL meeting - such a HUGE HUGE change from last year!!!!
Well I guess I just covered all the issues of my current life... BTW Dad has extended til 4 Nov if I hadn't mentioned that... it's gonna be a LONG 2.5 weeks more! *L* Til next time...
Dad still thinks Dev is just spoiled - regardless of the
bp/adhd - and he takes it personally when Deven ignores him or grunts at him
(ummm he is that way w/EVERYONE esp at the end of the day when he's reached
his limits), that he's sad and feels like crying and is sometimes crying on
the inside, etc and then when Dilen starts acting out/exhibiting the same
behaviors he comments it's "learned behavior" and says things to Dilen
like "Why are you acting like your brother? Why are you being bad, you have
been good all day, etc" I am just biting my tongue cause there is no use in
talking/arguing about it... if it was all learned behavior when I take Dilen
aside and chastise him and he doesn't get his way he would stop and that
would be the end but one of the bp signs/symptoms is that they stuck on
something - a red cup, going to store, wearing blue pants, sandwich cut a
certain way, etc and they CAN"T let it go... they just CAN"T - Dilen does
this more and more recently w/things... while some of the issues are acting
out to a point, he's showing more and more signs/markers of the bp... and no
matter what the boys are doing they are too noisy and he just doesn't get
that kids make noise and they can't help it they get excited and have no
volume control or that some of the toys they have are noisey/annoying (but hey they are playing and not fighting or bothering us).... I know he's set in his ways and from the old school of kids should be heard not seen but he's gonna drive me NUTS! Someone suggested taking him to shrink w/me when Dev goes again... he's commented he took care of BP people before but he doesn't get that children present different - I
printed out some stuff to leave laying around in bathroom since he likes to
read while he's on the throne....
The Divorce --
The "waiting period" is being over, it officially ended on Monday which means that E can no longer contest or counter claim my complaint... I went to courthouse on Tues to submit my motion to get a "judgement by default" which basically says/means that I am asking them to grant the divorce because he didn't object and I gave him the allotted time to respond.. They told me I would get a snail mail w/my courtdate to have judge grant the final decree but that I was looking at near Xmas as they are that backlogged on uncontested divorces - ok no biggie.... Fast forward to Thursday - I get a letter from court - open it thinking "wow I have my court date already"... turned out to be my original paperwork from Tuesday w/a note that I needed to include a second paper!!! SOOOO now I have to go BACK to the courthouse w/the papers AGAIN - what really pisses me off is that I HAD the paper w/me when I was there Tuesday - why didn't they tell me I needed it when I was there??? What gets me more is that the wording of the paperwork says "as filed w/the court" which means they have the original on file so why do I need to provide a copy??? GRRRRRRR SOOOO I get to the courthouse and the "desk/recieving" person listens briefly to my story and question and goes to get the person that handles the block of cast numbers mine is in.... Damn this woman was RUDE from the start and didn't even want to hear ANYTHING from me let alone answer a question - she was TOTALLY CONVINCED from the time the desk told her I wanted to talk to her that I was gonna ask for legal advice or something and REFUSED to talk/listen to me... Her supervisor wasn't MUCH better but atleast she attempted to listen to me.... She went back and checked my file, turns out that YES the requested paper was ALREADY in the file - no explaination or apology for the mix up/lack of competency from office/person sending back original paper of course but atleast my paperwork is now all "OFFICIALLY" filed... Of course I asked about my date since it was 3 days later now and I had already been told Xmas... the supervisor said they have some openings on a day in early Dec and she will put me there but again - I'll get the date in the mail - HOPEFULLY by Tues/Weds I will have my courtdate - what gets me is why they can't tell you right there if you are willing to wait 5 or 10 min - they act like they are comteplating revealing the deep secrets of the world to you then say "it's in the mail".... Ahhhhhh what a wonderful world huh??? Such caring, considerate people working in an office that deals with such stressful issues!!!! But anyway.... it is done... for now...
Parent/Teacher Conference --
The meeting lasted all of 5 min I guess - and man those little chairs are little! *L* Deven is doing WONDERFUL in school this year - all S for Satisfactory except for his sucking/chewing items like his fingers/shirts which was an N for Needs Improvement.... what a HUGE change from last year where it was all N's on his report.... The teacher and I are sooo proud of his progress in ALL aspects of school.... Now if I could get some of his great ability to listen, follow directions, clean up, etc to spill over to home!!!! *LOL* But overall it was WONDERFUL meeting - such a HUGE HUGE change from last year!!!!
Well I guess I just covered all the issues of my current life... BTW Dad has extended til 4 Nov if I hadn't mentioned that... it's gonna be a LONG 2.5 weeks more! *L* Til next time...
Friday, October 17, 2003
I have Deven's first Parent/Teacher Conference later today at 1:15pm.... Excited yet apprehensive about it.... Til next time...
GO YANKEES!!!!! WOOOO HOOOOOO Now I don't normally get involved in sports but with my Dad vegging on my couch the past month I have watched ALOT of baseball and I caught the bug tonight... it was a very good game I must say... YEAH YANKEES!!!! The curse of the Bambino lives on!!! Til next time...
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
Last week we went on our annual vacation get away to the Poconos... This year we dragged Dad along... well this involved leaving Tuesday, a day early and running to Maryland to fix/finish the lights we started to put up in my aunt's kitchen... We hit the road around noon-ish... suddenly decided to take the "scenic" route which, while the mileage is almost the same, the time is TWICE as long... BUT we got to ride a ferry between NJ and DE, it was a nice experience... We FINALLY got to MD and got the lights fixed/finished/working, had some dinner and hit the sack... The next day we had a late start getting on our way to PA from MD... First we had to stop and spend some time w/my g'ma (she's home on hospice care, still not eating very much at all and moans alot as if in pain/discomfort but she does get up and dress and then sit up in a chair most of the day)... Finally we started the final trek to PA at about 7pm... well once again we ended up taking the "scenic" route... *sigh* it was after 10:30 before we finally arrived... there goes one day of our vacation - gone... But still we had a nice drive... Now for 3 days of fun and relaxation - yeah RIGHT!!! *sigh* My dad misunderstands, doesn't "buy" that Deven is bipolar/ADHD and thinks he's just a spoiled brat needing more discipline... *sigh* we had a few hairy moments but over all it was nice... we went swimming, played miniture golf, hung out at the arcade, borrowed monopoly and boggle jr to play at the villa and the boys even participated in an obstacle course where each "won" a ribbon... over all it was a VERY nice time... WE even managed to run an errand or two for Dad.... I really enjoyed sitting and watching the golfers pass by and joking about the ball washing machine... We sat for a bit and looked at the mountains with all the lovely and bright foliage that is just starting to change - such vibrant colors - I even spotted some interesting shapes on the mountain... It's nice to be home though, stress and all.... Til next time...
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
D-DAY!!!!!
Today is the day!!! Yesterday the waiting period to allow STBX to file a counter-claim or answer to my complaint for divorce ended... Today I go to the courthouse and file a motion to ask for judgement by default.... I should have a court date within 30 days and then it will be completely and finally over!! Daddy will be coming with me the courthouse since he has other things I will be carting him around for as well....
It's been a long week and a half and I have lots to say but no time right now... To be honest no energy either... I do thank my friends for asking about me and I will update soon I promise!! I miss you all {{{HUGS}}} Til next time...
Today is the day!!! Yesterday the waiting period to allow STBX to file a counter-claim or answer to my complaint for divorce ended... Today I go to the courthouse and file a motion to ask for judgement by default.... I should have a court date within 30 days and then it will be completely and finally over!! Daddy will be coming with me the courthouse since he has other things I will be carting him around for as well....
It's been a long week and a half and I have lots to say but no time right now... To be honest no energy either... I do thank my friends for asking about me and I will update soon I promise!! I miss you all {{{HUGS}}} Til next time...
Sunday, October 05, 2003
Divorce Countdown
8 days and a wake up!!!
Keeping as busy as I can.... I am off of work for the next week and supposed to be going to the Poconos... Probably won't leave til Tues and stop over in MD for the night first.. Dad started putting in new lighting in my aunts kitchen and we need to fix it..
Sorta hit a stall in the house work - been relaxing instead of busting my ass - but I am cooking dinner every night and keeping up with the dishes too.. Hoping to finish up w/the laundry and get Dev's room organized tomorrow - neighbor is giving me dresser so each boy will have their own which will help ALOT since I will be able to put ALL the boys clothes away neatly....
Stepped away from the puter for a bit cause I just couldn't sit still long enough to concentrate to finish it up but hope to work on that this week too...
E is up for a promotion which will HOPEFULLY result in his being transferred to another state... should all go well he would be gone by the end of the year!! WOOO HOOOO If not there is an apt that comes available the end of Nov which he's most likely gonna take - God I can't wait!!! Living with him and trying to play NICE NICE is draining.... He will twist EVERYTHING I say after he's had a few drinks and of course no matter what it's not the right thing to say in his eyes... I soooo just wanna say BITE ME!!! Ah well soon enough I will be able to do that!!
Boys Update
Deven had a rough day Weds night/Thurs but he bounced right back and had a great day Friday... I know he senses all the stress plus having my dad there is disruptive to all our schedules... I kept him home Thurs since he was soo out of control/upset Thurs but I made him do a bunch of work and he did it all w/o any major hassles... I was so proud of him... and last Saturday he wrote a "morning sentence" all by himself by his own choice - my little man is sooo growing up!
Dilen still hates going to Preschool but they have started work w/him on his letters.... He tells me each day "I didn't have fun today!" in an almost defiant manner! *L* Of course I am sure he does but is smart enough to not want to admit it.... Today we FINALLY pulled out the bike I got for Deven LAST summer selling the fund raiser for the preschool/summer camp - well suddenly Dilen wanted his training wheels off... now we told him months ago when we could see him riding w/o looking around and we didn't hear the training wheels as he rode (we had bent them up a bit) we would take them off.... since Dev was getting a new bike w/o training wheels.... SOOOOOOO I took them off and damed if the boy didn't just get on and GO!!!! My little baby just got on and took off WITHOUT training wheels!! I was just TOTALLY amazed!! Tomorrow I will take some shots of him riding!
Then on the way to work today I took the back road behind the bldgs and had to stop to let 3 deer cross... they made it to the other side and then stopped and looked back - I wasn't sure if they were looking for a 4th or just looking at me... it was a very lovely, peaceful moment.... reminded me of all that IS good in the world that I sometimes miss out on since I have been sooo stressed the past few months.... Well it's off to do some paperwork and perhaps run out to get a bite to eat... Til next time...
8 days and a wake up!!!
Keeping as busy as I can.... I am off of work for the next week and supposed to be going to the Poconos... Probably won't leave til Tues and stop over in MD for the night first.. Dad started putting in new lighting in my aunts kitchen and we need to fix it..
Sorta hit a stall in the house work - been relaxing instead of busting my ass - but I am cooking dinner every night and keeping up with the dishes too.. Hoping to finish up w/the laundry and get Dev's room organized tomorrow - neighbor is giving me dresser so each boy will have their own which will help ALOT since I will be able to put ALL the boys clothes away neatly....
Stepped away from the puter for a bit cause I just couldn't sit still long enough to concentrate to finish it up but hope to work on that this week too...
E is up for a promotion which will HOPEFULLY result in his being transferred to another state... should all go well he would be gone by the end of the year!! WOOO HOOOO If not there is an apt that comes available the end of Nov which he's most likely gonna take - God I can't wait!!! Living with him and trying to play NICE NICE is draining.... He will twist EVERYTHING I say after he's had a few drinks and of course no matter what it's not the right thing to say in his eyes... I soooo just wanna say BITE ME!!! Ah well soon enough I will be able to do that!!
Boys Update
Deven had a rough day Weds night/Thurs but he bounced right back and had a great day Friday... I know he senses all the stress plus having my dad there is disruptive to all our schedules... I kept him home Thurs since he was soo out of control/upset Thurs but I made him do a bunch of work and he did it all w/o any major hassles... I was so proud of him... and last Saturday he wrote a "morning sentence" all by himself by his own choice - my little man is sooo growing up!
Dilen still hates going to Preschool but they have started work w/him on his letters.... He tells me each day "I didn't have fun today!" in an almost defiant manner! *L* Of course I am sure he does but is smart enough to not want to admit it.... Today we FINALLY pulled out the bike I got for Deven LAST summer selling the fund raiser for the preschool/summer camp - well suddenly Dilen wanted his training wheels off... now we told him months ago when we could see him riding w/o looking around and we didn't hear the training wheels as he rode (we had bent them up a bit) we would take them off.... since Dev was getting a new bike w/o training wheels.... SOOOOOOO I took them off and damed if the boy didn't just get on and GO!!!! My little baby just got on and took off WITHOUT training wheels!! I was just TOTALLY amazed!! Tomorrow I will take some shots of him riding!
Then on the way to work today I took the back road behind the bldgs and had to stop to let 3 deer cross... they made it to the other side and then stopped and looked back - I wasn't sure if they were looking for a 4th or just looking at me... it was a very lovely, peaceful moment.... reminded me of all that IS good in the world that I sometimes miss out on since I have been sooo stressed the past few months.... Well it's off to do some paperwork and perhaps run out to get a bite to eat... Til next time...
